Our torrid past and blissful present.

Where should I begin. I guess from the beginning would be best.

My husband and I have been together for 12 years. I am 3 years older than he, so when we began dating he was just a baby. Since the beginning we had a very spicy sex life. By the time we had been together 4 years, we began playing BDSM games. Our games never left the bedroom, and before long I found myself not very satisfied with the arrangement. The Internet was very limited back then and all I knew about Female Domination was the sexual aspect of it. Soon, I found myself exhausted both inside and outside the bedroom. Inside the bedroom, I felt my husband was trying to get me to be like the whip wielding bitches you see on the porn sites and I felt constantly judged and unappreciated. My husband never seemed satisfied with the Dominant I was, therefore I felt like I was not measuring up. It didn't take very long for me to resent the entire FemDom thing.

Outside the bedroom my husband was not interested in being a submissive. I worked full time, had 2 children and took care of all the day to day responsibilities of our family. I cooked, cleaned, paid the bills, did the laundry, etc. I would fight with my husband about needing help, but he would just ignore me or dish out excuses why he couldn't help. After about a year or two of this I told my husband that I was not interested in playing BDSM games anymore. We fought about it for years, me sticking to my guns and not playing with him.

Fast forward 5 years. After 5 years of a totally unhappy marriage, I found out that my husband had a secret life, involving the Internet. He had promised over and over that if he absolutely could not live without BDSM, that he would be a man and leave me. Well, that didn't happen. I found out that for years he had been trolling the Internet, looking for other women to play with, both Pro's and non-Pro's. In the end he was looking for a partner that he could be with.

The day I found out he had this secret life, I also found out that I had cervical cancer. I was in process of leaving him when those plans came to a screeching halt. I had to have surgery, and I would be down for a minimum of 6 weeks. Knowing that I was stuck with this man, I agreed that I would give him one more chance, but if I did some things were going to change. I took away his Internet privileges by putting blocker software on his computers. I began reading all I could on Female Domination, and what I found was wonderful. I found sites that explain the benefits of Female Domination and not just the whip wielding Dommes. I found that the way I had felt was common to other women, and I found the solution to that dilemma. I am including links to the wonderful sites where I learned what real life FemDom is all about.

So now we have this new relationship, free of the power struggle we had been in for years. I was ready to walk out the door and find a submissive man I could share my life with. Low and behold the one I already had was willing to be that man.

My blog has two purposes. The first and foremost purpose is to reach my fellow budding FemDom's and show them the benefits of this new life. Free from the pressure of being their spouses fantasy, but the reality of this lifestyle. My second purpose is to reach those men who want to be submissive to their wives. I hope to educate them in the right and wrong ways to approach and handle their wives. Hopefully, I can help others not go through the pain and unhappiness my husband and I went through. I always say "If I would have known then what I know now my life would be completely different".

I welcome all comments and emails, especially from women who are just starting out or that have years experience. Since I am a relative newbie, I am always looking for other women to share my daily struggles with. Transitioning into this new dynamic is wonderful, but at the same time awkward. Uncertainties and doubts flood your mind. That is why I am so grateful for the sites I have found online. They are foundation and support for living this life I so love. The links will follow in my next post.

Mrs. Claudia